August 27, 2008

I woke up in the middle of the night feeling like crap. Every inch of my body ached. My right hand hurt so bad I wanted to cry. Sooner or later I'm going to have to go to the doctor about my carpal tunnel. I took some Advil, but had trouble getting to back to sleep. By the time it was time to get up in the morning I felt like I'd been hit by a truck.

I have been having some pain in my back about where my kidneys are. I also felt some pain after urinating. I really hope I'm not getting a kidney stone or infection. That would suck. In any case, I've really felt like crap mostly since Sunday. At the beginning of th week I was able to ignore it and push through it, but it's getting harder to do.

It is almost time for Aunt Flo to come. Last month she really did not come. It' had not started yet when it was time to start a new pack of pills, so it was kind of cut short. So, I'm hoping some of this is just menstrual.

Some of it is also stress. I don't really understand what is going on. Everyone at work is way more stressed already this year than usual for this time of year. I've been trying to figure out why, but can't seem to put a finger on what's wrong. I just know that we've only been through 9 days of school so far and everyone says the same thing.

It feels like we should be about 2 months into the school year at least. One of my co-workers even said she felt like she'd not even had her summer off. She had the same 8 weeks that we all had, but it already seems like it was so long ago.

One thing that does not help is that our double day planning periods seem like they are going to be completely taken over by administration and specialists. My team mates and I really needed to collaborate on lesson plans today, but the whole meeting was taken up by test data and the math specialist. Although, I have to say he did help a great deal with our first grade universal assessment, that we still cannot use anyway. But, if we ever do get to use it, it'll be done.

Anyway, if all of those grade level meetings are going to be taken up like that, we're going to have to use up yet another planning period a week to get our lesson plans together. Why this surprises me, I don't know. Part of me is so tired of being treated like it's ok to make me put off as much paper work as possible to my time at home or after hours. I just don't understand why it's such a horrible thing to ask for the fact that paper work takes time and to allow us time to actually do it.