Of Ups and Downs

I just hate this time of the year. I have seasonal depression. It's not bad enough that I take medication or anything but it really does effect my whole outlook on things. Between the holiday let down and so many dark hours I just want to be in a different place literally and physically. It makes me feel like a petulant child and I want to throw a temper tantrum.

But, it's not like I can't be happy and don't enjoy things. It's just a really weird funky time for me. I mean I do look forward to my birthday every year. I can't help it, part of me is still like a kid. I love having that day that is just about me. That day that means I'm special.

And, this year there are some fun things I have to look forward to. Among other things that I don't want to talk about yet, I have Spring Break to look forward to. It's going to be awesome this year. The 14th of March is my last day of work before Spring Break. That Sunday Michaela and I will get to go to the Girl Scout sleepover at the City Museum which is going to be so much fun.

Then, that week both kids and I get to stay home together. We all have Spring Break at the same time and I get to NOT pay Guppy tuition that week.

The week leads into Easter which is always a great family time. Michael's parents usually take us to a buffet brunch that day. Plus, the kids just love the fun stuff that goes on for Easter.

And, to top it all off, I get Easter Monday to myself. Michaela and Caleb have to go back to school that day, but I have the day off. I'm so excited about that whole time, it's not even funny.

So, it's not like I don't have things to be happy about, I just have this annoying depression thing that goes on right along with it, which actually makes it even harder to deal with when I'm feeling two such opposite things at the same time. I just want to scream.

Ok, enough pity party. Time to focus on enjoying the fact that I don't have to go anywhere or do anything tonight.